Sometimes it is very hard to respect others although I grew up learning to respect the elders, teacher even anybody that I know. Don’t matter if I just met them or knew for years. Today, I learn something about respect. For one sure thing, when I respect people, I expect to be respect as well but if that not what I get, forget about getting my respect afterwards.

It happened around 5.30 pm..half an hour after I supposed to finish work where I honestly said that I wish to work till 5 pm (my intern coordinator told me my work is till 5pm). It is my right to tell the person in charge what I feel and I want that are my rights. Too bad for me, he went berserk just because I want to go home on time (I’m not given allowance for the whole period even if I work 12 hours or more a day). And he ask me, “don’t you want knowledge?”. I did’t answer that coz I knew it will make him even more berserk. To be frank, I don’t really care.I doubt I will ever put myself in arranging plan business.

But what made me go mad is when he said ” You don’t deserve to be here. You know why you are given this course? This because you only deserve this!”

An instructor who is also a teacher said that to me. I was devastated. I fell like I’m useless. But thinking deeper, I think he is mad at himself. Somehow beyond his word, he’s saying that agriculture is for the worse, or not very smart student. I never see what I’m studying right now as something that low class like that. I honour everything that I learned about plant, soil, fertilizer, RCBD..bla bla bla…..most important thing, although its not something I will make as a career, that doesn’t mean to learn it useless.

I can’t accept when somebody who just know me for 2 hrs criticized me just because I don’t wanna waste time and energy for so call ‘knowledge’ that actually spelled ‘free labour’. I’m not that stupid neither being treated like a slave. I don’t get paid!!! what else do you call a labour who don’t get paid?

and for the record,  I was also been chased away from his unit. Like he owned it…duhhhhh……Like I care.Weirdly enough, just why he don’t ask for my help nicely? I might just say yes, as long food provided and somebody send me home. Oppps….middle age man don’t ask, they just order.

My lesson :

1. Keep mouth shut although u r right when you have points to argue if your opponent is somebody in middle age

2. Stay away form these kind of fella, they just giving bad example.

3. Be true to yourself. Don’t ever change just because some old guy say something that sound clever. they are not you. they don’t know what you going through.they don’t have google in their schooling era.

4. Keep earplug around. Just in case you are stuck with them